‘Goodnight kisses’

To: TODP
From: Josh
Subject: tonight..

Maddie..
Just wanted to tell you what a nice time I had meeting you tonight.  I really do like you..and enjoyed your company.  I’m looking forward to seeing you again sometime soon, I hope.  and btw..that was so sweet of you to pay for dinner..of course, I will buy next time.  Let me know what your schedule looks like with the kids over the next few weeks.  If its too hard leaving the house, getting sitters etc., I can always come over after they’ve been put to bed..bring the beer and Chinese food..whatever.  Just an option as I know that getting away is difficult when you have the kids.
In closing, I’ve got to tell you..the little goodnight kisses were wonderful..I was smiling all the way home.

see you soon…
Josh

I wish I felt this way too. But instead I came in the house and cried a little. My sitter said, “I think you should call Tom. He was such a nice boy.”

The date: Josh went on about his ex-wife as soon as we got in the car. And when we got to the restaurant, I discovered this wasn’t even THE most recent ex-wife, the one who gave birth to his children. He was married to this second one for 10 years.

Then it went on to the Iraq war — “Would you want your kids to go over there and be dead by age 20?” I asked. “I would be proud if they served,” he said. — to Rush Limbaugh — “I agree with most of what he says.”

I paid the bill because I wanted to wrap it up.

When he kissed me at the end of the night, I was hoping for a little passion to make up for what should have been a flirty first date… EH.

Well……

What to do here.

I’m wondering if I’m ready for an actual relationship, but at the same time, I’d need someone to blow me away to penetrate my skeptism,  and maybe having my guard up isn’t a bad thing in the search for the right person.

If I do see him again, I will insist that talk about exes is off limits. That was tiring, keeping track of new boyfriends and husbands of his exes. Whew.