Dinner was…

NICE!

As I was chopping carrots and potatoes last night, I kept telling myself, it would be OK if I canceled with Josh. This pot roast was going to get cooked one way or another.

And all day today… I was all in my own face. If you weren’t that keen on him, move on! No, you should give him the benefit of the doubt!

I’m glad I did.

Dinner was actually very relaxed, very casual. After I got the kids on to their bedtime routine, we sat and talked. And talked. He can tell a good story, very animated, very all over the road yet focused on what he was trying to say. And he didn’t bring up an ex at all this time. Well, once. I joked with him that we covered all the ex stuff already, and he seemed to get that I didn’t want to hear about that anymore.

He is a very gentle person, very perceptive. And I forgot almost completely that he is 19 years older than me, except when he mentioned things like aches and pains and that he would never go skiing again at his age and hadn’t been for 15 years. Thank goodness for that. I have never had a desire to ski.

I’m really glad I went through with it. I think I got back a little of that self-esteem I had been losing sight of… and I even started to imagine Josh naked! Gasp!!!!

He was very polite and left before 10. Gave me a peck or two, nothing to indicate that he was sexually driven, and while I can appreciate that in a guy… well… I had hoped there was a little bit more desire there.

But then he asked to see me again Sunday.

Unfortunately I already have plans. But I look forward to seeing him again.